Feeling is Healing

27 days until my big move and I feel pretty unprepared in every possible way.

Packing, immunizations, fundraising, doctor visits, distractions, worries, baggage of my past, and qualification.

God has been doing major things in my heart these last few weeks I'm here in America. Maybe someday I'll be able to write about it all. It's been overwhelming, humbling, intense, and most of all painful. But what all those things add up to? H E A L I N G.

He is teaching me that even when I can't FEEL Him working, He IS.
Even when all I FEEL is pain, He is reconstructing.
Even when I am overtaken with FEAR, He is building strength.
Even when my broken condition brings HOPELESSNESS, He is chasing me with hope.
Even when I want to crawl and hide, He is running after me with unending grace and love.

My feelings can't dictate His character. Thank you, Jesus for always being the same.

He is making ALL things NEW. New is uncomfortable, unknown, yet desired by all of us isn't it?
Most of us are unwilling to accept the changes it requires for the beauty it would bring.

Even this shattered, dysfunctional, selfish, damaged, human heart of mine.

I believe with every single beat my heart produces, God is piecing together a NEW and healed heart that looks like HIS.

Psalm 18:19 "He led me to a place of safety; He rescued me because He delights in me."

No matter where God takes me,  He is constantly rescuing my heart all over again every day.

And He enjoys it! Think about that. He DELIGHTS in rescuing, romancing, and healing your heart.

My feelings are not the truth. HE IS MY TRUTH. I am called to stand FIRM in what He has told me, no matter how strongly I may feel the opposite. I think of Jesus and His death. He begged God, his Father, for another way to bring us all back to Himself.

Yet He trusted despite His feelings. Because He KNEW that the Father always knows our best. 

And look at the beautiful promise on the other side of His pain. God sees the whole picture because He wrote the story. Let Him rescue you and make you new as you follow His calling. You have to FEEL in order to HEAL.