Chasing Mystery

It's so funny sometimes when we are convinced God is quiet, but really we are just not trusting in what He already said.

He is so patient. He is so good. He is so detailed in His planning, yet so simple in His instruction. I was reminded this morning of His simplicity while drinking hot coffee and sharing delicious breakfast with a dear, sweet sister of mine:

"It is so simple. He didn't make us to know and plan out the next step; He made us to know Him right now."

He gives us today, and He gives us Himself. We are not promised tomorrow, so why do we agonize over tomorrow's agenda?

We make everything SO complicated when, the entire time, He has made it all so simple. Gods' promises never change, but thankfully, in the process, we do. 

We learn something in the process that we never could discover apart from walking in it. We learn trust, we learn faith, we learn patience, we learn love. We learn how to see with our hearts instead of with our eyes. 

But generally, we immediately assume He has changed His mind or forgotten about us-- we discard His faithfulness, His promises, His instruction, His voice, His leading-- whenever things start to take a turn; whenever things don't add up or seem logical. But when was His path ever supposed to make sense? Supernatural stories require natural situations in need of a miracle. Those moments where something seems completely hopeless, irreversible, & impossible-- God says: "FINALLY! Now it's my turn." 

This journey next to Jesus was supposed to be so ILLOGICAL to the world that His miraculous provision filling in the gaps caused the only logical response of following Him and worshiping Him more. Dare I say that a life without unknown is the most dangerous path a believer could be on. When I read scripture, the only thing that is ever KNOWN and PROMISED is God, what He has promised, and what He decides. As His kids, we are blessed enough to have something unshakable to hold onto in the midst of such a shaking world. But we immediately believe when we feel the shaking underneath our feet that our only source of "known" has failed us as well. But has He really failed? Or have our expectations? His thoughts are not our thoughts, His ways are not our ways. So why do we constantly try to fit HIS ways into ours? They'll never fit, because they were never meant to. His plans are too big and beautiful and infectiously incredible to squeeze into our limited logic.

God designed our hearts to see things that our human eyes cannot. In fact, our hearts see the clearest by having our eyes closed the tightest. What do we receive through the Holy Spirit? A new HEART or a new set of eyes? Yet, for comfort and affirmation, we often search for signs so our eyes can fully believe our heart's vision.  But God tells us that we need faith, not sight. Faith is vision to the heart. I am not great at this; but I am learning. And He is the best teacher.

Who He is and what He said cannot be taken away. If He told you something, it will come to be. It doesn't matter what seems to be in the way; He is orchestrating a path to it anyway.

But we have to be okay with not knowing or seeing the path to get there... we have to fall in love with the unknown, the process, the journey. The more that I fall in love with the heart of God, the less I am concerned about what is to come. Because He is really all we were ever created to need, know, and do life alongside.

The only thing that shakes our faith and creates worry on the journey is our distrust in His plan. Our circumstances do not invoke panic and fear; rather, we allow them to. Surely, we think we can do it better, get there through a faster or more adequate way, or understand clearer than God. Sounds an awful lot like Eve's thought process too, huh? Our greatest issue of sin is always rooted in doubt. Doubting that what God first declared is best, and believing a different way could be better.


Once I stopped striving to see my future and embraced the step in front of me, all worry deceased. Our job is not to figure out what's next, it is to simply be where we are. Even if that looks terrifying, challenging, impossible, illogical, or irresponsible to the world.

I am learning to BE EXCITED in that mystery; rather than overwhelmed. My soul knows that it is loved and known by my Creator... What do I really have to worry about? Embracing that freely finally allows you to dance where you are. Trust in His timing. He will tell you when to leave and when to stay. Just be close to Him. That's all that's ever mattered.

Falling in love requires mystery, wonder, and discovery. Falling in love with Him, falling in love with your spouse, falling in love with your life, falling in love with His plan, falling in love with the process.

He designed the unknown to be an opportunity for deeper love. It really always, always comes back to love. Many people never experience a love like this because they are too afraid to live a life without mystery. But it is worth the choice to be brave. It is worth the unknown journey. It is worth the unmarked timetables. It is worth the adventure of mystery. Explore places and people and processes with Jesus. The greater the mystery ahead, the deeper the love waiting to be found.

Fall in love with the process, and you'll fall in love with the hand leading you every step of the way...Because the sweet colors He uses to paint the blank spaces will lead you to fall at His feet in thankfulness and wonder. I am reminded day after day it always must come back to Him... Not the path, not the promise, not the worry, not the shaky circumstance, not the struggle, not anything else but Him and His heart. 


Day after day as I walk with Him; in darkness and in light-- I find all the more that He is so worth trusting, friends. He loves you; Let Him show you.

-Han